Consolidating.

Last blog entry I wrote about losing myself. Now I am contemplating what I have gained from that loss…turns out, i have gained nothing. Nothing at all! Well I could bang on for a bit about insight, wisdom, calmness and/or happiness. But just like a beautiful rainbow, these are impermanent states, passing beauty that won’t … Continue reading →

Letting go of me

Oh boy, what a crazy couple of months. I have spent years working on myself now, trying to figure out ‘what the…?’, ‘why?’, ‘how the…?’, ‘huh?’ spaces in my head. Trying to understand my own conditioning. I have even made it to a point where I am content with my’self’ most of the time. There … Continue reading →

Drowning not waving.

In silence I await the settling of the pond. From time to time a peace resounds, Then movement ripples across the surface, images, disturbances, sufferings of the mind. Small moments of near bliss that beckon me deeper. I see how the suffering is all my own but still I swim in it. I feel how … Continue reading →

Kindness

I was at a workshop a little while ago and was overwhelmed by the simple explanation “because life is so difficult, the only choice is kindness”. I had been struggling with finding a way to simplify the teachings of Buddhism and Yoga, particularly with regard to my work as a therapist, and here it was, … Continue reading →

The future

“it ain’t about the cha’ ching cha’ ching, it ain’t about the ba, bling, ba, bling” Since I was quite young, maybe 12 years old I have been arguing with my father about priorities in life, arguing that “it’s not about the money”. I have argued quite vehemently that money isn’t real, it’s something that … Continue reading →

Equanimity

I think this is the hardest one of all, trying to develop a neutral or even positive attitude toward everything from the annoying kid who kicks the back of your seat all the way from Fiji to Sydney to criminal predators. Boy, that’s tough (and a rough comparison!). Understanding the concept of dependent origination helps … Continue reading →